a-lightning-strike-moment-in-life, mine.

i have something to be shared, what i called a lightning strike moment in life...have u ever experienced it? i'm sure every person has its own lightning strike moment. the lightning strike moment is a moment when a person realize something that will change his/her life forever, whether it is good or bad. actually it is a turning point of life.

i've experienced it once... the bad one (at first i thought that). At that moment, i felt like i'm failing my parents and it was a big mistake that i made and i never gonna take it back as it used to be :(...i was so drowned with guilty, i tried and i tried to forget it by getting some distraction. i did some activities to forget it but when i was alone, those feelings struck back :(...it felt like i was falling from the highest mountain and sinking to the deepest ocean :(...i can say that was one of my lowest part of my life, up until now, ocassionally.

but you know what, i can not be this way for the rest of my life...i have to fight all of my bad guilty feeling and get back my positivity, my spirit and energy to face life ahead. After i talked to God, over and over again after my pray time. i have to admit that I'm only human and human made mistakes...a lot! every day, every minute, every second...i just keep that in mind that no human is perfect. nobody is perfect. i would just have to forgive myself and try to loosen it up.

So here I am, try to face life everyday with gratitude. i still have to build up my positive mind that everything will be alright...meanwhile one thing that i do is that i'm trying to have minimum connection or even no connection with the person or the thing or whatever it is that can bring back my bad feelings... that is for me, so that i can forget it and continue my life without any disturbance.

i thanked my family and friends who supported me to past last year, this years and hopefully years ahead, in my ups and my downs...i love them.

this lightning strike moment really had me a lesson of life but i don't wanna through the same path like what i did in the past. i don't want to!! i have got to change.

Please God please guide me safely through every mile of my life :)...

xoxo
ara



photo source : google pic of lightning strike